alright.

yet another complain from ahpek.

so here i am, updating.

hmm.

wanted to update on lots of stuff recently.

been too busy, too tired.

forgive me.

did some editing for 4e2 gathering pics days back.

will post it up when im free or maybe later.

yup.

today.

thursday.

hmm.had maths test.

arghh.

i think im gona get a big fat ZERO .

but oh well,

shld i feel guilty or shld i not?

i did all the tutorial questions myself!

and yet i don't know how to do that question.

im plain stupid!

SUPID.

SUper stuPID.

i miss the days at bts.

where everything went like a breeze .

in ny,

practically everyone, mugs and do their hw.

almost nobody will slack like how bts students does.

and even if they do,

they've brains , 've got nothing to worry.
im sad case la.
born stupid and lazy.

which also means hopeless.


nobody goes like "whatever!" when it comes to hw.

nobody goes like "study also fail , so don't study la " when it comes to exams,

nobody goes comparing who've gt the lowest in the test.

nobody pass around each others work to copy anymore.

nobody stands at the door and get ready to run to the canteen when the recess bell goes.

nobody counts down at 1:44:50.

goes 10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1 ..

and screams "yea!".

nobody goes "LORDSCARFIZ!"

nobody goes "YAPPYAPPP"

i miss those days at bts.

also,

especially the malay guys , and kaichen , in our class.

their lame jokes and all.
i dont miss eugene.

because everyone in ny is like him!

can you believe how terrible it is?

surrounded by species of eugene!

wendy,jaime,janice,feli,ahpek,kb....

save me!

and ya!

i miss animal family.

didn't study together recently.

[ohmygod. ahpek send me a message when i'm typing this]
i miss going tp.

no .

actually i don't like going tp.

i jus like to be with my animal family.

not because of the chicken cutlet , really !

its really fun exploring the place where they're in.

too bad they don't feel the same way as me,

if not animals will be spotted in ny.
yup.

khayboon 's nick is, as time passes, thing changes.

are you refering to this?

yup. its like we've moved apart now.

after tp's sch hols.

everyone seems to be busy now.

nobody is gonna entertain me when i go tp again.

how sad right?

okay.

and ya.

i've been approach by A LOT of people telling me about god.

christians.

but im pissed off yesterday.

this lady came over and talked to me.

she didnt introduce herself also.

and started talking.

at first i tried to be nice.

listen to what she has to say.

okay den i told her,

i'm more to buddhism.

i respected her religion.

and i hope that she did.

but no.

i cant believe she said that...

"i studied history and i know history, if jesus stand infront of buddha, buddha will kneel down. because buddha is not god. buddha is human."

oh so what, i dont know much abt my religion.

but she keeps repeating that.

i got irritated la.

den she continue saying...

"do you not believe that the bible is words from god? god loves you and he died for you.he sent his son to die for you. "

okay.. i heard that a trillion times before can?

i can write a book abt christianity because of all this ppl.
she also went on saying

"do you really think buddha exist? did he write a bible like how jesus did? did buddha died for you?why do you believe in that? do you think buddha love you?"
i felt kinda insulted.

the way she put her words.

so i decided not to be nice anymore!

i said " oh really? but jus like the muslims haf koran.if u're a buddhist, buddha is the god.if you're christian, den jesus is. god is there,its jus a matter of who it is. so it doesnt really matter to me anyway."

she was stuck. totally speechless.

den she said.

"okay. thankyou. bye"

i know i was rude.

but she was too!
i don't know who's the god, buddha or jesus or allah....

what matters is that you believe god is there isnt it?
god definitely won't blame you for not knowing who he/she/it is, right?

maybe god is really jesus?

that is why i've been approached so many times.

i dont know.

at least i know, i respect other ppl's religion and belief.
some people might feel offended, especially christian.

so enlighten me.

maybe someday i'll understand.

i love god.

whoever it may be.

oh did i say?

i hate looking at the mirror now.

i hate to see myself.

i don't like to look at ugly people.

thats why, i avoid looking into the mirror.

hais, why did god make me so stupid and ugly?

alright. enough whinings.

i'm SUpid.

but i'll still try my best.

please god, if you can't make me pass.

make others fail with me.

ar. i know this is bad karma.

okay. take it as i said nothing.
*runs*

to bed.