death.

how could someone just come and go like that?

about my emotions,
some wondered why.

most won't understand.

in your eyes,
she seems to be someone so far away from me.

yet, i'm immensely affected.
how i wished, its not her.

sometimes, i wished i've said something i didn't.

sometimes, i wished i didnt say what i did.
its now all, too late.

don't question me any further.

you won't wanna know.

i've learnt my lesson.

a painful one.

how i wish it was all a dream.

how silly was i , to think that maybe its a mistaken identity,

maybe she's still alive
or maybe she might come back to school again.

some people says only those who don't have the courage to live on ,

seeks death.

but

i think it takes greater courage to seek death than to live on.

Its harder to find reasons to die than to find reasons to live on.
how cruel, to leave all your family , friends behind.

why can't everybody not die? then why in the first place are we brought into this world? to die? its meaningless to live on to wait for the day you'll die. its meaningless to learn about sadness just to know what is happiness. why can't people just know whats the difference between being happy, happier and happiest and not the difference between sad and happy ? why? why can't we turn back time? why must we come to this place called earth? why can't we be in hell or heaven for eternity so we won't experience the feeling of death and losing somebody? why can't we jus vanish into the empty spaces and not even exist in the first place? why should god create humans? why should god even exist?