i think im really getting fat now. YES.

i managed to put on another 5kg!

whheeee....

i dont like coach.

i prefer miss sadiah.

i prefer auntie julie.

why is she always assuming she is right?

when, the other two taught me this way.

ok i seem like the one assuming im right.

haha.

i want miss sadiah.

i want mr taufiq.

i cant perform.

i dont know why.

maybe its the long break.

maybe its me.

maybe its that i've no faith in her right at first sight.
whatever.

i think i lost faith in netball.
netball is no longer enjoyable.

it was in the past.

back in bts.

but..

those days are long gone.
they're long gone.

argh.

so much hatred yet so much love.

whats wrong with me!

i think im tired.

physically and mentally

drained.
god ,

please lend me a helping hand

Because of you

I try my hardest just to forget everything

Because of you

I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you,

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you