okay, time to update.

packed my stuff yesterday.

rearranged all my papers, books, presents.

it took me so long,

till 3am!

alright, but thats not the point.

i packed all the gifts that i received,

into my display cabinet.

it really got me thinking about the past.

some meant a lot to me.

the CD i must say.

100% handmade.

more than just sweet.

how could anyone spent their time doing this for no apparent reason just for me?

its none other than chewchiayin.

its quite awkward to mention her name here but ya.

if you happen to be here?

I'm sorry .

i know there's something about give and take,

i took so much and didnt give,

yet i did that to you.

sorry babe.

And the "message stars",

by eileen, esther, and valerie.

you guys made for me 364 so i'll open one each day.

and when i open up the very last one,

its my 14th birthday.

but i didnt open all, not even till today.

i'm opening one at this very moment,

its eileen's handwriting saying,

"a friend's affection is the greatest treasure on earth"

okay, i'll open another one,

its esther's handwriting saying

and candice's present.

the present itself is not very special.

but, she remembered my bday even after 2years

w/o really keeping in contact.

she bought so many stuff.

when she went genting, she bought me something.

she bought me another when she recalled i like that very much.

she also wrote something really sweet.

and finally my bday present.

about 4 or 5 items.

she kept all these for 2years and gave me all at once.

she was thinking about me all that 2years.

really really sweet of you.

of course, feli !

how could i leave your present out?

the photoframe "no.1 friend" and that pillow.

believe it or not,

its sleeping with me all this while.

(my mum thought it was from my boyfriend or something)

and jaime 100% handmade card.

lovely.

you really took all your time to draw and colour every single one of them.

:)

and some other pressie that really got me laughing,

eugene's chopsticks!

who on earth will give chopsticks to someone on their bdae?

and all of them using the same wrapping paper from precious thots.

how wonderful.

haha.

and from mr choo.

the first and last gift i received from a peteacher,

when he went to thailand.

wonder how is he now.

i still remember the bus stop incident...

arghh.

and yea, esther's door sign.

chiayin's letter, konnie's postcard and marshmallows(don't worry, i ate them already), bears, soft toy and lots of them.

and for some, i kept and i know i shouldn't though.

so im not gonna mention it .

and so ya.

i realised i really take more than i give.

or maybe i didnt give at all?

im sorry.

i really suck at friendship.

i don't know why.

baahhh.

enough of that.

went pool with tallrer, eileen and eslynn today.

2tables thou.

i felt really uncomfortable stepping into an arcade again.

i don't know why again.

i don't know about everything!

maybe what i used to do, used to be with, used to be around with,

-in the past,

can never ever be felt once more.

nothing is gonna be the same again.

ya. people will go like "derr~" when they read this.

but still i wanna play basketball so much,

even if its not gonna be the same anymore.

alamak.

i dwell too much in my past .

ok so i was saying,

pool.

had fun.

=D

went LJS .

fish treasure meal - yummy

had that for two consecutive days!

and went home after that.

i really wish tallrer and eileen can go back to the good old days again.