Its been a really bad day for me.

it started off with my wallet.

it was in my hand a moment ago, then its gone.

i don't know whats wrong with me.

and i realised it was on a canteen table after searching high and low.

and then, jokkuan told me i'm a different person whenever i'm with cheryl and all.

she said i was noisy and crazy.

but i don't know.

i thought i was supposedly one of those "quiet" type that no one takes notice of and i wanted it that way.

i really thought it was so.

i admit i was crazy in btss,

thats because i'm happy.

but never in nanyang.

i'm not not-happy, just okay with nanyang.

i don't feel at home in nanyang, like in btss.

i don't know why i'm making such a big fuss over how people judge me.

maybe its because i really know nothing about myself.

i'm not the me i thought i am.

i don't know about myself.

yes, i really don't.

i will take time to bond with myself,

(okay that sounds so wrong)

set time to be alone.

to understand myself.

words can never hurt me, yea right.

i thought.

and i said something i really didn't mean to today.

its about basketball.

it was out of anger that i said its a solo-watever game.

it was because they looked down on the netballer.

she was good okay.

and they shouldn't have said those sarcastic remarks about a sport.

and i admit, i did gave stupid remarks about a sport too.

thats why i'm guilty.

i wish i can really take back those words.

mr ong will be fuming to hear that coming out from my very mouth.

i love basketball and i still love.

i love netball and still do.

so it really winds me up when someone thinks negatively about it when in the first place they know nuts about the sport.

so far, its always netball that people thinks its stupid.

and coincidentally, its the basketballers, not all thou.

so out of anger, i give stupid remarks too.

i'm really sorry.

to whoever who loves the sport.

and ya,

as for the "sly and cunning" remark , because of what i say in the blog.

i'm okay with it.

i know i may sound harsh,

i maybe too blatant,

too direct?

especially when i'm scolding someone in my blog.

but thats the whole point about blogging.

you voice your thoughts and opinions and whatever there is.

it may be out of anger,

i may regret typing all those things down.

but it was exactly how i felt at that point of time.

(okay maybe wrong choice of words)

isn't that the whole point about blogging?

if its not, enlighten me.

don't you people get angry, upset over someone too?

its only human , is it?

people do scream, shout and pour everything out to someone don't they?

maybe just not in the blog i guess.

so its only me who does that.

to all those i denounced and those i'm about to denounce in future,

its only out of anger.

i'm sorry. and in advance too.

i suck at controlling my temper.

so my blog is where you must avoid.

but i must say,

the day is not that bad because of my tootest toot.

toot , you're always there for me.

thanks.

i didn't tell you what happened ,

its because when im with you,

nothing really bothers me.

blessed with the ability to make me laugh so hard.

blur-sorry-don't-recognise-you-look!

and you will always be laughing at my stupid-not-funny-at-all-super-lame jokes when no one else will.

and besides, you brought me food.

I love toot and food :)

toot's the best.

thank you :)